If you think you know me, you probably don't know me well. I am NOT who you think I am. I am not the person I appear to be.
I seem friendly and outgoing, but I fight my own social anxiety each and every day. I prefer to be alone than to be with other people. People zap my energy. I would so much rather stay in than go out.
I seem confidant in my skin, but I hate my body, especially my upper arms, my second chin, and my inner thighs. I wish I was 30 pounds thinner, I am currently obsessed with it.
I seem to be interested in what you are saying, but I probably could care less. I sometimes fight myself to stay in the moment, but my mind is always wandering. I hate stupid self-obsessed people and sadly most people are stupid and self-obsessed. Don't feel bad, I am self-obsessed, too. My own thoughts are too much for me to handle, so please don't be offended. I just realize that this is disgusting and I hate myself for it.
I seem to be helpful and always willing to do a favor, but I am getting sick of continuing to do things for other people when no one seems to ever help me when I ask.
I seem to be tough, but I am actually not. I cry about business, I cry about people saying mean things, I cry when things don't go my way that I cannot control.
I seem to be a real man eater, but I haven't been out on a date in months and I cried over the last guy I dated more than a few times when he poofed on me even though I may have been even less attracted to him than I was to the Awful Ex and I couldn't imagine ever getting naked with him....like I just got regrossed out thinking out it.
I seem to be really in control, but I have a horrible and ugly temper that I work very hard to control with exercise, sleep, and a huge dose of alone time.
I seem to be happy, but I am actually quite depressed. I want to be satisfied and secure and content, I just don't know if I every will be......