Thank You, Kitchen Product Find, and Wheat Free Recipe

First and foremost, thank you readers for the wonderful and supportive comments regarding me being stuck.  You all are right and I appreciate the advice and I took it all to heart.  I woke up early this morning, made a list of what needs to be done, and I am moving right along.  I am feeling good and positive.  I need to live in my present, so I can enjoy my future, no regrets.  THANK YOU THANK YOU!  I appreciate you taking the time to share your wisdom, it means a lot to me.

A few years ago when I was still living with Awful, I became obsessed with making soup.  I was looking for comfort anyway possible and soup seemed to do the immediate trick, I was a soup machine.  Any and every veggie eventually became a soup: asparagus, cauliflower, squash, carrot, broccoli, pumpkin, potato......I am totally going to make some yummy soup for lunch tomorrow!

In my quest for the perfect soup, I discovered that I needed an appliance to make everything blend, so I could have a dreamy consistency without adding a ton of cream, butter, and fat.  Enter the Cuisinart Smart Stick Hand Blender.....heaven!

I use it to mix/make so many things: soups, salad dressing, lemonade, hot chocolate, sangria, smoothies, etc.  I also use it to beat my eggs for fluffy omelets and to work my butter into dry mixes for baking.  It truly is an AWESOME product.

This morning, I was in the mood for something yummy and I felt like starting the day with a hearty wheat free breakfast to keep me on track.  Armed with my hand blender, I decided to make wheat free banana pancakes, a recipe that I have seen on many cooking blogs and have always wanted to try.  It is super simple and not too messy.

Recipe:

- 1 ripe banana
- 2 whole eggs
- Dash of cinnamon
- Dash of vanilla extract
- Cooking spray or butter for pan

Optional mix-ins: chocolate chips, nuts, blueberries

Directions:

1.  Beat eggs, banana, vanilla, and cinnamon in a large bowl until smooth with no lumps.   Use your hand blender for best results!

2.  Stir in any of your optional mix-ins (I had mine plain this morning, YUM!)

3.  Heat a skillet or frying pan and grease as needed

4.  Pour batter into the warm pan just as you would with pancake batter and turn flame to low heat.

5. When pancakes begin to bubble and the edges solidify, flip, and cook until golden on both sides.

6. ENJOY!  I did with maple syrup, they tasted JUST like pancakes and the banana flavor is VERY subtle if you are not a banana fan.

These babies kept me full until lunch time and I think this will be my go to breakfast for a while, SO SATISFYING!

Hope you all have a great weekend!



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Eating My Heart Out

Yesterday was a very bad eating day.  It was terrible actually.  I stayed up late working on Friday night watching TV and catching up with friends on the phone and then I chatted until very late with the Crush and then I was too excited to sleep because I am cool like that.  I have a really good conversation with a man and then I get off the phone and scream and hop around like I am in 6th grade.  I really should have had a real boyfriend before I was 24, I do think I would have been a tad bit more mature now....

So, yesterday, I had lots to do and while I did it, I ate massive amounts of food.  Then, I watched lots of movies on TV including Mean Girls (Lohan, WTF, seriously girl, WTF, you were so damn cute in 2004, the hair, the body, your face....you should have kept it ALL the way it was....BEAUTIFUL!....imagine if she never touched herself, she would be so gorgeous now, like a baby less than 30 Julianne Moore) and there is a part in the movie where they are showing Lohan the lunch table demographics and explaining where the jocks sit, where the Plastics sit, and one of the tables is the 'girls who eat their feelings' and I literally stopped eating my cookies and cream slow churn yogurt and almost choked....I mean, that's me....that's not who I was in high school openly in public, but it's who I am now in secret and I don't think it's funny....I am a girl that eats ALL of her feelings.....WTF?!?!?!

Why did I eat my feelings yesterday?  Hmmmmmmmmm.....these are the reasons I am coming to as of now:

1.  I have a lot of work to do and I am having a lot of anxiety.  I am going to make a check list each and every morning in order to accomplish what needs to be done and not get all miffed about the constant email which is a part of life and business these days and there is no way to avoid it.  I am averaging 75-250 emails daily which all need to be answered, so I am trying to find a way to manage it all.  Catching up on weekends do help.

2.  I didn't sleep at all on Friday.  I stayed up all night.  I dozed off for 2-3 hours.  When I don't sleep, I always crave carbs and sweets.  I ate a TON of them yesterday.  Not cute.

3.  I am feeling nervous about the person I am crushing on.  I am not going to self-sabotage or use substances to feel more secure (I realize now that I used to drink tons to get from being something to being a girlfriend....like I would NEED to get drunk to discuss feelings), this time, regardless of what happens, I have vowed to be honest and open about everything.  What do I really have to lose?  Nothing.

The truth is that yesterday I binged.  I ate mindlessly, I ate a lot, I ate until I had to lay down and I woke up with a food hangover.  I made it 9 days, NOT 30 as I set out to do and that's okay.  9 days without a binge is surely progress.  It is much better than where I was, binging everyday for 1 year!  So, I will be starting over today, with a Binge Free: Day 1 (Cycle 2) and try for 30 days.

I do think that this time, I may just be able to get there....everyday is a battle, if I keep trying, perhaps, I will eventually win....