I am all or nothing. There is no in-between with me. You are either in or out. I am either fat or thin. Happy or depressed. Surrounded or alone.
Food is hard for me because I am either counting every single calorie or eating and binging with reckless abandonment. My mind has no middle ground. I am either munching on baby carrots or stuffing a Big Mac into my mouth....
I am going to be mindful, well I am going to try. I want to actually listen to the voices in my head and allow them to guide me. I eat my feelings because I don't like to deal with them. Eating has been my way of coping and now I am ready to actually work out the kinks and move on.
I don't want to be a sad lonely depressed person, it isn't a good look on anyone, especially on me.