I am not eating well these days. Oy. I know. Same old story. It is getting so tired over here. But, I need to be accountable.
While I was away, I ate a bunch. I enjoyed some yummy fare like fried chicken, biscuits, and collard greens and I didn't gain a pound. Impressive! As I mentioned before, my Crush has a really good and healthy relationship with food, so being around him is great for me. I eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full and we take walks and dance*!
*(I know, the dance stuff surprised me, too. When he first wanted to dance with me, I got SUPER embarrassed and acted like a sixth grade girl and blushed and said, "No, I don't know how".....in a Kardashian baby voice whine, but then I got over myself and opened myself up to my 2 left feet and dancing is now my favorite thing ever! Did I mention, we are going to take lessons for fun (not for wedding practice, for FUN) when I move?! Oh yes!)
Back to my eating issues....so when I got home, I got on the scale and I was the same, which lead me to eat everything in sight regardless of hunger for the past three days and now I have heartburn and I am scared to get on the scale. And the biggest issue is that I know why I am doing it, yet I can't stop! I have work to do that I am avoiding doing, so I am eating to distract myself instead of working. Yes, I may ignore my hunger signals, but I know why I do things....progress?! Perhaps it is.
So, I am back to tracking starting now and I am going to stop feeling bad for myself and track and move my tush and get that resume updated and figure out all of my pending tasks and I am going to function. Angels just sang, I need to function! I know the eating well works for me when the rest of my life is in control.
HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!
You can do it! I'm back to tracking. I obviously upped my calories for the pregnancy but I don't need to be eating 3,000 calories a day, especially right now. I've actually had to eat a low carb, high protein diet out of necessity to keep from vomiting and I'm feeling a lot better. I think you need to find a place to do work that relaxes you. Like maybe the library or a college campus or just someplace pretty. Then set aside a few hours everyday to go there and work and then when you leave you can do other things and feel good that you got a lot done. You wouldn't have this procrastination problem if you were in an office. I've worked from home and it's wayyy harder. You can do it though! Too bad you don't have memorial union!
ReplyDeleteOMG! You are so right! It is my environment. I need Memorial Union. I can't work because I don't have an office. If I did, I could do it. TOTALLY! I am going to do this. For real. I want to and I need to and I will. You are so right! I am going to go to the library right now. Genius you are!!!!!!!! And good for you for tracking!!!!!
DeleteI think you may have thought you ate a bunch while away, but probably walked (and other activites ;)) the calories away. Drink more water, drink some tea, calm down and carry on!
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