Working Towards to New Habits

It takes me a long time to get into routines and a short time to get out of them.....

Lately I am working towards fulfilling a few simple routines and I am doing pretty okay at them.  I am quite pleased.  When I am focused, I can be really on point, but I can't do anything unless my heart is in it and my heart is really into self improvement these days.

A fews routines I am currently sticking to:

1.  I am still gluten-free for the most part.  I would say 85 percent of the time.  I hope to continue to do this for as long as I can.  It would be awesome to go a week without a wheat treat, but sometimes the force is too strong and I accept defeat.  I am working on being less all or nothing, so if a cookie meets my lips and I really want it....I become Cookie Monster.

2.  I have been going to the gym 5 times a week.  This is good for me.  Again, not the old me, who either went to the gym EVERY SINGLE DAY or NEVER.  I have mixed it up a bit and I am doing all types of classes: spinning, bar method, muscle, and yoga.  Boy, it feels good and I am getting fantastic results for me because I am working out muscle groups that have been neglected for far to long.  This is because I like the easy way out, so I just did spin class all the time because I like it.

3.  Sleeping with the lights off.  Oy.  Embarrassing time.  I am SUPER afraid of the dark.  I know I have mentioned this briefly before....but, I LIVE WITH MY PARENTS and I still cannot turn the light off.  I am 31.  Laugh at me.  I can take it.  I have a fear of being attacked in my sleep.  Some of this has to do with the fact that I lived in a haunted (NO JOKE and I will post about it soon) room in college and some of this has to do with the fact that I was once home alone in an apartment I once lived in while a homeless man was trying to break in and I saw him and he saw me (he was trying to break in through a sliding glass door) and it didn't deter him, he appeared to me on drugs...what did deter him was my neighbor thankfully coming up the back stairs with laundry from the laundry room out back and yelling at him and calling 911.  I will always be grateful of that neighbor.  In crisis situations I freeze like a statue.  It makes me not trust myself.  Good news, I have slept 5 full nights in the dark.  When I am with Crush, I have no problem with the dark.  It is just when I am sleeping alone.

4.  Washing my face, brushing my teeth, taking out my contacts.  I know.  I am gross.  Until recently, I could sleep in full makeup and go to the gym and workout in it and not get a single zit.  Those days are sadly over.  My skin has become super sensitive and I NEED to do my nightly rituals if I want clear skin, white teeth, and vision.  I am often okay about this, but when I get depressed (and I was for a while there with the firings), my hygiene sadly goes out the window...sorry Crush!

5.  Last but not least, I am tracking my calories again.  Birds are singing.  I seriously think I have had nothing to eat on days when I am pulling in a cool 3,000 calories.  It is clear to me that I need to track to stay in reality with the food and the days I do are always better than the days I don't.  A milkshake is not 10 calories just because I tell myself it is in my mind.....

XXXXX,

R&F