I am here in Charleston and getting settled. Learning my way around a bit without the GPS.
Seeing Crush everyday is divine. Spending time with my family, Crush's family, and both of our families at once is the icing on the cake.
I feel at peace.
My life is going to be even better than I imagined.
The weather, the people, the pace. It is just what I needed.
I am supposed to be here. This is my place. The one I knew was out there, but didn't know how to get to. And Crush is my person. My soul mate. He completes my life.
The drive from Chicago was emotional. I got my period 2 days into the trip, so I think some was hormonal, but most was relief. As the miles ticked away, I bawled on repeat every few hours while listening to my favorite CDs, songs about breaking free and starting over. Something I always dreamt of doing, but didn't have the courage to make a reality. Well, until now.
As I passed through 7 states, I felt my broken self being glued back together, a teeny tiny peace at a time. The distance from Chicago has made me whole again. All of the BS and things that were simply too difficult than they needed to be. It is over. Done. I have finality.
I can be the good, sweet, kind, honest, empathetic, and funny person I know I am inside. My walls have come down.
When I arrived to my new apartment and jumped into Crush's waiting arms, I felt the same way I did when my Dad left me at college 14 falls ago....that the possibilities are endless and I am in control of my destiny. I haven't felt like this for far too long.
I am on a little vacation right now, no real schedule has been formed, but I have been Spinning everyday and seeing Crush for alone time, too. My parents depart on Thursday and we have been having fun being roommates again for a few days.
I have been to the beach, I have had some cocktails before 6:00 pm, I have enjoyed lunch on the pier, and a picnic supper in the park. Tonight, I am going to a concert and my favorite new bar to get a drink.
Life is good.
Actually, it is phenomenal.